fuck 'em all

getting asked "is everything ok?" constantly makes me not want to talk to him. So I started avoiding him.

Now, he wants to know why I am ignoring him. and I can't just be like "dude. you were all over me, being way to solicitous." So.. what I want is for him to just talk to me about random subjects.

Maybe he'll notice that that is the only time I really talk to him, and switch it up.

Or maybe it's just me. I don't really want to deal with someone that I KNOW is in love with only the bits of me he's seen. he's not seen my avoidance and my sucky bits, even though I try my goddamn best to not to hide it.

I don't know. I reaaally think my avoidance of long-distance is the best idea for me.